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Well, I guess there's some news to update.

As some of you know, Friday, October 31, I was informed that my contract with my current employer was not going to be renewed. I was assured that I had done nothing wrong, they were pleased with my performance, etc, etc. I have until November 14th to work here, then I am done. Do you hear God in this?

This is the job that I have been unhappy with for several months. I had discussed this with my bosses several times, as a grown up, not whining or complaining, but discussing what changes may improve morale here in the clinic. Laying off the PA was not on my list of things to do to improve morale.

So, on to the God part.

I prayed and prayed (and prayed more) for God's hand to be present in all this hoo-haa that is my current life. Monday AM, I asked God for a break. There's been so much pressure, and to walk back into a clinic that laid me off was mentally killing me. Monday AM, a friend from church came to me to ask if I would accompany her and her daughter to a conference, all expenses paid, to chaperone her daughter (who is a good kid, and I like hanging out with her anyway).

Where is the conference? Disney World.

That's right, the mouse with the most.

I leave four days after my last day at work for four days at WDW. While I am there, I will see another family there who have adopted J and me as surrogate children and get to hang with them for a while too.

It gets better.

Jeremy and I have decided (and I can't tell anyone this in person, it makes me cry) that we will put resumes out wherever. My very scary idea about getting a job outside of H-town is that we will have trouble selling our house. The market isn't great, but it's not terrible. I was telling God that's what I was most scared of. So, Saturday, less than 24 hours after learning my contract would not be renewed, a friend of a friend offered to buy my house. Sight unseen. Just hearing me describe it on the phone.

Wow.

I insisted that they at least come over and look at the house. They will be coming over next week to look. We have made it clear that we're not ready to sell just yet, but if they are interested after they see it, we'll offer the house to them first. And guess what they're preapproved for? Yep. Very, very close to what we're asking.

Does it get better? Of course.

We both have let go of the bitterness and anger that we felt initially. How can we be mad at someone who was just doing what God wanted? If it wasn't handled just the way it should have been, I can learn from that. Once I personally let go of the anger, God reached blessings into my life. I had asked for a few considerations, and was told, unequivocally, that there would be no considerations. No reason was given to me, but it was clear that they wanted as little to do with me as possible.

After the anger was gone, guess what? My boss came to me and apologized for his behavior and actions. He gave me everything I asked for. I told him that I didn't want him doing anything he was uncomfortable with, but he assured me he would be okay with what I had asked.

There are a few things that have gotten me through the nights.
1. If God wanted me to work here, there would be no way I could leave. If God wants me to leave, there's no way I could stay. I'm done here, and it's all in God's hands.

2. God promises me strength and faith for today. Not tomorrow, today. When I am laying in an emotional fetal position and thinking "I don't know how I can go to work tomorrow and face these people," I am reminded that I don't have to have faith for tomorrow. I will get that strength tomorrow from God. And he definitely provides. But enough for today.

3. Ralph said this Sunday and it stuck with me. If the apostles had known on Friday that Sunday was coming, would the joy have been so deep? Would they have grown? Would it have been as meaningful? We are definitely on Friday. But Sunday is coming. And it's gonna be cool.

We are praying fervently for Jeremy to get a job to replace our incomes. We want this prayer prayed specifically. Please put us on all the prayer lists you can. God is using this situation to allow both of us to grow enormously. We will keep you up to date on what's going on. It's gonna be a wild ride. I wish I was more patient, but God works in his time, not mine, and it will come when we're ready.

Keep praying!